The One About Inori

So you all know I started classes. Which I had written the wrong days in the previous blog entry. It’s every Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Not Friday. Just in case you were looking for me on those 3 nights. Not that anyone would look for me anyway. *Sobs*

So I missed 2 lessons of each of the 3 classes because we were away. This is my 2nd week in school and I’m already sitting for tests.

I think I did very well in the Maths test. But that is hardly surprising as I’ve always loved Maths. It’s one thing that will never let you down. If your answer is correct, it’s correct! It’s not arbitrary. It’s not whimsical. It just is. Maths is the best subject in the whole wide world.

We didn’t have a Physics test although I thought we did…..

Today was Chemistry test and I almost wanted to laugh hysterically at the paper. Because . it . was . all . Greek . to . me. In fact, I may have done better in a Greek test than this Chemistry test!

SIGH!!!

And out of the 3 subjects, Chemistry is the most important one for entry into MBBs!

I was sorely tempted to write stupid answers in those that I didn’t know. For eg, when asked what “CH₃COOH” was, I wanted to write “The Chernobyl Disaster?” (The correct answer, however, is ‘Acetate’) For those of you curious to know what I did write in the end… was “Carbon……”. Uh huh.. I actually wrote the dots. “Carbon……….” Yep.

There is just too much to memorise! Sulfite, sulfide, oxide, dioxide, the elements the ions the isotopes…… I just want to run from the room, screaming my head off. I can’t balance an equation for the life of me!

I think brain surgery might be easier than all these mumbo. Any neurosurgeons reading my blog can clarify this? Hmm?

So anyway….. ever since coming home from the “Holiday”, I’ve been busy with school and, get this, HOMEWORK. I haven’t had HOMEWORK for years. I can’t believe how many years have passed since I last did HOMEWORK. I’m really getting on with age!

Battling with 2 screaming kids, housework, online store and we’ve also taken on a Project. That’s right. With a capital ‘P’. Because it’s a huge Project. We can’t say more, though. It’s kept top secret and only a small handful of people know about it.

I can, however, tell you that it is not:

a) Another baby (you must be out of your mind to think that we are trying for #3 right now)

b) Creating anti-matter by hurling particles down the LHC.

This Project, has been sucking all my time these past few weeks. We run around like headless chickens and we neglect the kids household chores because of this Project. (Uh, mum? Would you like to come and do some laundry for us? The pile of clean clothes sitting on the spare bed waiting for folding/hanging is currently taller than I am now…)

All I can say is, I hope Project is done soon and I can finally do some knitting or sewing.

Oh wait. I can’t do that yet. I still have MY TAXES to do! URGH!

SOooooOo.. anyway, Project might take up to a year to complete. Or it may dissolve into nothingness in just a month or so’s time. So that’s at least a month to a whole year of my time and energy. On top of school. On top of 2 kids. On top of the housework. On top of the online business. On top of my hobbies which I have been neglecting.

I sat in class today and wished and wished and wished that I were 16 again. Where all I have to do is study and do well for my tests/exams. And I think of how lucky Lulu is to be able to study without the distraction of… uh… say… a crying kid. Or a crying kid. Or maybe a crying kid.

So yes. My life has been pretty crazy to say the least. I don’t know when it will resemble sanity. But I have an inkling that it may only just be 21 years from now. Maybe I can get a discount… Maybe only 20 years.

Without God, though, I would have given up everything. But because of Him and Him alone, I am able to say that I (in no specific order) love school (yes, even when I don’t understand Chemistry), I love my kids, I love my husband, I love my parents and sister, I love my friends, I love my church, I love my yarn and fabric stash (lol), I love doing The Project even it’s caused a little anguish and anxiety but we gleaned and learned A LOT from it, I love my crazy life and most of all, I love God. HE is the most wonderful thing that happened to me and if I were to compile all the miracles He’s done for us, I can write a thick book.

Oh yeah~~~ If you’d like to send some yarn or chocolate or cards or letters or something to cheer me on, you are more than welcome to.

I accept cash too. Thankyouverymuch~

Lol.. just kidding.

Dear Sunshine,

Today is a special day for both daddy and mummy. Today marks the 366th day (this year is a leap year) you have been with us in the world.

You started out as a lil peanut in mummy’s tummy… And then you grew and grew inside of me. And then you did VERY violent stunts in there….

Ouch.

Then you decided not to grow anymore and had to be induced 3 weeks earlier than the date you were due.

Few minutes old….

You really caught us by surprise, little one. Your grandma had to change her flight to come down to meet you earlier.

But it also meant that we got to hold and cuddle you earlier. We saw you and we fell in love with you. How could we not? You were so adorable! (But also wrinkly. And rather scrawny.)

Your first day… soooo cute!

You made mummy cry when you had jaundice and had to be placed in the incubator with UV lights. You looked so lonely in there. Mummy cried when she was alone in the room with you but couldn’t cuddle you. We could only look through the glass at you.

It was funny – you were the ONLY baby that would tear off your mask. The midwives called you “wriggly worm” and you really lived up to that name! Even till now!

We were amazed at the little things you did. You managed to raise your head up while lying on your tummy at only 2 weeks old. You are always so cheerful and full of smiles for everyone.

Mummy missed you tremendously when I had to go back to work. I would look at your pictures and videos whenever I had a break. You are a joy to be with and will always be.

It is a fun and educational journey for all of us – to watch you grow, develop new skills, learn new vocabulary, perform new stunts etc. You pull at our heartstrings with your little antics and cute little actions. You sometimes surprise us at the amount of things you understand and are aware of around you.

You are a bright and intelligent child, Sunshine. You can be stubborn and strong willed at times too. But overall, you are a very well-behaved little baby and we thank God for that.

(This is her shitting face, by the way.)

You are also a very healthy baby and for that, we really have only God to thank.

Everytime we bring you out, there would be someone who would come over to tell us how cute and gorgeous you are. Haha, you make us blush then. Strangers in the post office would run after us (I’m not exaggerating!) just to tell us that you are soooo cute! Shoppers at the supermart would also start talking to you. I think it’s because of the way you smile at everyone. Melts peoples’ hearts.

Grandma sews you cute little dresses like the red one in the picture above. She loves to shop for pretty clothes for you. Until your wardrobe is bursting with clothes. What are we going to do with all the girly ones if your sibling were to be a boy?? Hahaha.

We knew you were growing up fast when you no longer slept much in the car. You used to fall asleep in 3 minutes flat once the car was in motion but now, you would only fall asleep if you were very tired.

We also knew that you were growing bigger because we could no longer carry you for a long period of time without feeling exhausted. Now your stroller lives permanently in the car boot because should we forget to bring it when we bring you out…………………………. ……………………..

Our arms would be as long as our legs by the time we get home.

You know, Sunshine, both mummy and daddy never knew how much a parents’ love can be for their children until you came along. Although you are the younger one, you’ve taught us countless and important lessons.

Mummy and daddy are learning along with you, Sunshine. We do not know the answer to everything but we will always try out best. We promise!

Last but definitely not the least, we love you, Sunshine. And because we love you, we will always remind you who gave love – our one and only God. Who loved you so much He gave His son Jesus to die for you. We will always pray for you, our little daughter, for the Holy Spirit to guide you and to be with you.

We may not be able to give you all the riches in the world. We may not be able to give you all the time you need from us. We may not know everything in the Bible of everything that the Bible teaches. But we can tell you how much God loves you. Because He is Love. And because of Him, we are able to love you.

Happy 1st birthday, our dearest child. Grow up well. Grow up righteous. Grow with our Lord.

I was sitting there wondering why my WIPs have been progressing really well these few weeks when I realised that it’s because Nad has been using the computer for his work most of the time! He’s now studying full time in a course which dumps A LOT OF assignments/ essays/ reports/ novels on him to write and they have due dates so close together that many people have dropped out of his course.

But it’s good. Less computer time for me = more knitting time. It works out well!

In answer to the earlier question, 4. I have 4 jobs.

- In the morning, I wake up and I fuss with the baby. Wash her buttocks and feed her, talk to her, play with her. (1 – Mum)

- Then I send the husband to school. (2 – Wife)

- Then I come back and amuse the baby again. Simultaneously, I check the online store I now own (www.yarnandkisses.com) for any orders and pack them accordingly. (3 – Online Store Owner)

- Then, I bathe and pack the baby into the car and off we go to fetch the husband and I start work at the same university, at the Veterinary Hospital immediately. (4 – Animal Welfare Worker)

- Then, the husband fetches me from work and twice a week, I work at a pizza joint near our home. (5 – Pizza Maker)

So that’s actually 5 jobs but ‘wife’ and ‘mum’ can actually roll into 1 job so I hold 4 jobs.

It’s tough and some days I do feel like collapsing in a sorry pile and shut down my system completely. Whoever said that “Life isn’t a bed of roses” is wrong. Because it is. It is soft and sweet smelling but it also has thorns. So Life IS a bed of roses. Sometimes it’s soft, sometimes it’s thorny.

But I have God. He is always there with us and helping me pull through the most difficult times.

Many people do not understand me – why I act this way and why I think this way. It doesn’t matter because that person doesn’t know what I’ve been through and what I am going through. Not everyone is born with a silver spoon in their mouth. So what strangers/ acquaintances think of me doesn’t really bother me much. I may feel slightly indignant at the point when negative comments are passed about me but that feeling fades really quickly.  Because in the end, I still have my loving family and friends with me. Most importantly, when every single person in my life can fail me, God and Jesus never fails me. I only have to call on His name and He will be there.

I have another SnB session tomorrow with my SnB sibs (Soaking In Bathtub?) again because Shazzy is moving away soon   So us sibs (Shitting In Bathroom?) will be meeting every week now instead of every fortnight until she leaves for Koorda. We’ll be very sad when she leaves. Sigh.

I look forward to the end of the year when I can say goodbye to most of the jobs I’m holding now. (Unfortunately – or was it ‘fortunately’? -, I’m going to be a mom for life…..) because NAD WILL BE GRADUATING AND HE CAN FINAAAALLLYYYY WIN THE BREAD!!! 8 more monthsssssssssssss……….. I can’t wait.

And I also cannot wait to offload the baby sitting on my lap now. Her head curiously stinks of vomit. I wonder why because she didn’t vomit!

ps: I’m craving for the oven toasted ribs that my workplace serves.

Happy Anniversary To My Darling Nad.

It’s been a great year being your wife and I always thank God for you. I’m very grateful for the care you provide for me, the dogs, the cat and most recently, Sunshine. You’re a great husband and a great dad. I pray that we will have many many more anniversaries to come. We love you tonnes!

Tomorrow, I turn 24 years old. Last birthday, I became a wife. This birthday, I became a mother. I wonder what’s in store for me next year! Hahaha. Maybe I’d be baptised.

I’ve had a great year. It started with my wedding and ended with a beautiful daughter. We moved to set up our tiny home with our pets, I got a job that I love, have great and funny colleagues who tease me all the time, I grew even closer to God as He showed us SO MANY miracles in just a short time, had a wonderful pregnancy experience – I scraped through without throwing any temper tantrums! Although I did wish to disown my back because of the unbearable backache – ,picked up a new and addictive hobby, discovered Lulu’s talents in taking care of babies ……….

Sigh… so many things crammed into a short short year.

I survived because of one person. God.

Thank you God.

Thank you for all that You have given me.

Thank you for blessing me and my family.

2007 has been quite breath-taking. And it’s only begun.

First my marriage, and then the big move. And then other stuff that I won’t say yet for now.

I’m left with 3 days of work.

I’m going to miss my colleagues dreadfully.

The dogs and the cat are flying next week. I really pray for their safety and their sanity. It’s gonna be a huge change for them.

But 2007 has been a truly blessed year. God has been so good to us that I think I do not deserve being treated so well by Him.

However, only He has foresight and would know what is in store for us. I leave everything up to Him.

I find myself at peace this way.

There are reasons behind all the feelings I’ve been having lately. And I shall reveal it much later.

I hope I would have more time to blog, take and post pictures in time to come.

My new place has no internet connection yet and I do not know when internet connection would be up. But Nad’s computer is definitely much better in performance than this lousy one I have.

Big changes in 2007. Huge. Life-altering changes. Scary changes. Tr… well you get the drift.
I really hope it won’t be too rush a new start for me. Take things easy and slowly from now. Or else I may start developing wrinkles.

But as long as God is with me and I’m with Him, I just know, everything is gonna be well. I know it.